pagi galau #3

that shouldn't be like this. everything's gonna be too hard now, bt i know i have to face it

pagi galau #2

orang putus itu sama persis kaya orang yang mau pindah rumah. ketika masukin barang-barang ke dalam kardus, kita sekaligus ingat memori-memori lama tentang rumah itu. yang muncul pertama pasti kenangan pada saat awal menempati rumah itu. tapi sebenernya ga ada yang salah. rumah itu ga salah, kita juga ga salah. cuma, mungkin sekarang rumah itu udah terlalu sempit buat kita, dan kita cuma butuh rumah baru yang lebih luas.

Raditya Dika-Manusia Setengah Salmon

pagi galau #1

pergilah kau , bawalah semua rasa bersalahmu, bawalah rahasiamu yang tak ingin kutahui

i need them

i need you now,
dear nells, ilmun.

b-h

sebenernya siapa yang mestinya berhak marah? siapa yang mestinya ambil keputusan?
bayangin aja ya, siapa juga yang bisa tetep sabar kalo orang yang kita suka lebih belain orang lain yang notabene pernah bikin kita sakit hati parah? sekalinya diingetin masih tetep dilawan, dua kali diingetin masih juga dilawan, tiga kali kali diingetin, mulai nipis sabar gue bro. Yang keempat kalinya, sori, udah abis sabar gue.

Masih kurang kali ya bikin sakit hati orang. Kayanya emang udah ga peduli lagi deh sama perasaan gue. Lebih penting pesta ulang tahun temen daripada hati gue yang hancur.

So, don't you remember all you've done to me? Did you forget all?
Why do you turn off your phone when i need you to talk to? Why you just leave me without nothing?
I'm not the doll which can smile everytime. When she sad, she smiles, when she angry, she smiles, and when she broken heart, she also smiles. Sometimes, i want to be a doll, too . so, i dont need to cry when i am sad, and feels lonely.

getting older

night everybody !

so, tonight i wanna tell you about my last birthday . hmmm you know, that looks little nerd when i received a happy birthday for the first from my oldest bestfriend, nanas (you know why i give pink color for her name? because she loves it much!). okey, nanas is my friend since we met at elementary school. and when on the tenth grade, we were a deskmate. i think we're both insane. why? because everytime we meet, we just talk about a very very unimportant things, lets read this one :

in the tenth grade, we have an civics teacher, named Mrs.I**. She is a beautiful and the simplest teacher i ever met. How can i said? We can finish one chapter at once! so you can imagine how strange she is. she makes everything as simple as she can. so, the next week, she must be give us a daily test.

when nanas and me get bored about her lesson, we always imitating her speaking style. then, we get laugh together. see, how nerd we are.

the second greeting come from my special one-you know who-. He got sick the night before, so he can't be the first to say happy birthday. btw, he gave me two gifts. the first is a tetralogy of novel and the second is a wristwatch. 

him : i love you for every seasons

andd, the 3rd,4th,5th,6th,7th,etc greeting come from some of my friends <3

the last person-well im not sure she is really the last-who gave me a happy birthday is nells!

idk, she looks really want to be the last person to say. you know, she is special. i think she can be special for everyone because she's so kind, beautiful, smart, and i can say, she is almost perfect <3

im sure that people around her must be proud having someone like her. 

some books

hello candyyyyy !
hows your holiday? i hope that was the awesome holiday you ever had.

look at those books ! they are my bestfriend for this holiday. i just been finished them all about 2 days ago.

okey well, i think they will be so interesting enough to kill the time. btw, i just ordered a book from dee - Filosofi Kopi. i hope it will come early.

my mom's dream. . .

mowning everybody <3 i wanna start my day with my big dream oh awkay , my mom's exactly.

look at that picture! how cool it is ! i wanna study there. wml yaah :)

untuk sahabat

aku sudah terlalu jauh berjalan diatas keegoisanku
dan kini memang sudah terlambat
aku semakin sendiri

you

okey, i will care you less than yesterday

they're like...

entah kenapa sejak 2 hari lalu, beberapa orang bicara pada saya tanpa berpikir apa yang mereka ucapkan itu pantas untuk dilontarkan? cukup tidak menyakitkankah bagi lawan bicaranya?

curhat

helo mbak mas, kalo bicara itu dipikir dulu ya, tolong lihat juga dirimu sendiri sebelum mengomentari orang lain. Jujur mbak mas, saya kecewa sekali dengan sikap kalian. Yang mau saya tanyakan, sebenarnya apa salahnya sih ngerasa tidak puas dengan sesuatu hal? lihat dirimu lho mbak, mas, kalian juga PERNAH seperti saya, cuma mungkin kalian aja yang kurang sadar diri. Makanya mbak, saya minta tolong banget, lain kali coba deh jadi orang yang sedikit jujur. Coba belajar dan usaha sendiri. Susah kan jadi orang jujur? yep, because you never try to be like that.
So, try to be honest dear !

harapan pagi ini

hi guys, good morningggggggg <3
well , wish me luck for today yaa, especially for my report book

sesuatu, sangat random

udah lama yaa, ga pernah nulis sesuatu di blog ini.

btw, kalian pernah ga sih ngerasa capek atau semacamnya dalam 1 hubungan?

hmm mungkin kali ini gue ngalamin hal itu. bukan capek yang gimana sih sebenernya, lebih tepatnya gue benci sama keadaan yang maksa gue harus ga marah, harus terlihat baik-baik aja when i know i'm not, harus ga cemburu, harus tidur dulu buat nenangin hati yang lagi sumpek, dan pada intinya semua itu gue lakuin karena suatu keharusan yang kalo ga gue lakuin bakal berakibat fatal.

gue tau ga seharusnya tiap hari saya harus marah pada anda. saya tau anda bosen lihat saya yang tiap hari marah sama anda. tapi ketahuilah, sebenarnya saya juga bosen marah pada anda. tapi anda selalu seperti itu. setelah kita sama-sama senang atas suatu momen yang anda buat, saya mohon jangan memancing emosi saya kalau anda tidak ingin saya marah dan membuat anda merasa percuma telah membuat momen itu untuk saya. saya bukannya tidak terkesan, sebaliknya, saya justru sangat terkesan dengan momen momen itu. 

oke kenapa juga gue jadi curhat -_-

so,

did you ever feel the same?

fate

i don't like when somebody said that a man and woman suddenly meet and inlove , this is just a luck . i think this is a fate, bcause God has so many plans and that's one of them .

quote from tweeps

life isn't an agenda , things don't always go according to plan

something new

helloooo all :*

happy ied fitr 1432 H \(´▽`)/
taqobbalallahu minna wa minkum
wish we can get better life after this holy moment :D

enchanted

this song, dedicated for someone
i feel like what - i really speechless when i met him
and now he is mine :)


There I was again tonight, forcing laughter, faking smiles
Same old, tired place lonely place
Walls of insincerity, shifting eyes and vacancy
Vanished when I saw your face

All I can say is it was enchanting to meet you

Your eyes whispered, "Have we met?" across the room, your silhouette
Starts to make its way to me
The playful conversation starts, counter all your quick remarks
Like passing notes in secrecy

And it was enchanting to meet you
All I can say is I was enchanted to meet you

This night is sparkling, don't you let it go
I'm wonder-struck, blushing all the way home
I'll spend forever wondering if you knew
I was enchanted to meet you

The lingering question kept me up, 2 a.m., who do you love?
I wonder 'til I'm wide awake
Now I'm pacing back and forth, wishing you were at my door
I'd open up and you would say

It was enchanting to meet you
All I know is I was enchanted to meet you

This night is sparkling, don't you let it go
I'm wonder-struck, blushing all the way home
I'll spend forever wondering if you knew

This night is flawless, don't you let it go
I'm wonder-struck, dancing around all alone
I'll spend forever wondering if you knew
I was enchanted to meet you

This is me praying that

This was the very first page, not where the storyline ends
My thoughts will echo your name until I see you again
These are the words I held back as I was leaving too soon
I was enchanted to meet you

Please don't be in love with someone else
Please don't have somebody waiting on you
Please don't be in love with someone else
Please don't have somebody waiting on you

This night is sparkling, don't you let it go
I'm wonder-struck, blushing all the way home
I'll spend forever wondering if you knew

This night is flawless, don't you let it go
I'm wonder-struck, dancing around all alone
I'll spend forever wondering if you knew
I was enchanted to meet you

Please don't be in love with someone else
Please don't have somebody waiting on you

oh pancake

helloo fellas , i'm baaack -__-
akhir-akhir ini lagi demam pancake nih gara-gara acara bazar sekolah kemaren minggu minggu kemaren . Jadi ceritanya kelasku dapet menu makanan yang bahan dasarnya telor gitu , akhirnya kita pilih pancake .

btw, kemaren senin gue sama pily pergi ke rumah pancake . niatnya gue sama pily mau beli 2 , tapi waktu nyampe di rumah pancake .... gue baca sesuatu ....

strawberry pancake IDR 13,0
vanilla pancake IDR 13,0


mampus .
gue sama pily malah pelotot pelototan .
okeh , akhirnya niat gue sama pily terpaksa dibatalin .
gue sama pily mutusin cuma beli 1 strawberry pancake .
selagi mas masnya masakin pancake , gue liat liat gambar pancake yang ada di meja gue .
ada triple pancake gitu di gambarnya , gue mulai positive thinking .

ga lama kemudian , mas masnya datang bawa strawberry pancake pesenan pily sama gue ....

gue diem . pily frustasi .
kucing yang ada di bawah kursi gue sekarat .

voilaa !
pancake yang gue bayangin kaya di gambar itu tiba-tiba berubah jadi bayangan pancake yang dijual di stan kelas gue waktu bazar sekolah.
hopeless.
tapi daripada mubadzir , gue sama pily akhirnya makan strawberry pancake itu . gue yang pertama makan .
Gue : pil , ga mau nyobain ?
pily : (ogah-ogahan) lo aja duluan geh -__-
gue : lo ga mauu ?
pily : gue nyobain aja deh
(pily mulai nyobain)
pily : pancake ta pukis ? rasanya kaya pukis -__- gue makan buah stroberinya aja deh , pancakenya abisin , gue ga doyan .

parah .
sejak saat itu gue sama pily kapok pergi ke tempat itu .

another , not important

she said to me :

it's too late for you, ask me to forgive your mistakes

i just wanna say to her :

let's learn how to forgive someone though we know it's too late and too hard for us

i have so many good friends out there , but i only have a friend who wouldn't gimme sorry though it just once

signed,

pita